Turning the page

Don't be afraid to get back up again. To try again--To love, to live, to dream again. Don't let the hard lessons harden your heart. Life's best lessons are often learned through the hardest of times and the worst mistakes. There will be times when everything that could possibly go wrong will go wrong. When you feel like quitting, remember that some things have to be wrong before it can be very right. Sometimes you have to be at your very worst to arrive at your very best.

Not because you have faced many defeats, you have been defeated.
No matter what, ultimately, we choose our own path---positive or negative, the decision maker is you. People always say i have no choice. And i was one of them.
But i realized-- You always do.
You have a choice.
You are the driver.
You steer your own vehicle the way you want.
There's no reason why we choose to be stuck in a rut. The moment i realized i deserved more was the
Moment i turned my life around.
It isn't perfect, it will probably never be.
But it has perfect moments.
Moments that will be one for the books. And there are
Moments worth trashing and forgetting too.
Those moments teach.
They make me think.
They make me grow.
They make me better.
They make me strong.
They break me, and make me
Whole at the same time.

And so now, i say, do not be afraid to make that step. Only then will you move forward. Only then will you start a new chapter of your life. Don't be scared to turn the page.
Its meant to be turned.
Yes, it will not exactly be comfort zone, but what we thought are our comfort zones are actually us settling.
And I'm done settling.
I deserve better.
No, i deserve best.
And that's what Im hoping for.
And that's what Im getting.
If not now. Later on.
I'm not rushing.
But neither am i afraid to take risks and make mistakes.
It will be a part of the story.
A part of the adventure.
A part of a happy ending.

Getting it wrong to get it right

I woke up at 4:18 in the morning and had this urge to write what i felt from the depths of my heart.
I am not a writer nor a blogger. But these feelings were just so heartfelt that it translated in words.


GETTING IT WRONG to GET IT RIGHT

Sometimes we put our hopes into one person before we learn that we should really keep some parts of our heart and soul to ourselves. We struggle with indecision and uncertainty. We keep looking for that spark or connection in a world generally filled with indifference, at least for some people.
Sometimes we're not even looking, it just happens.
And often, we don't know what we're looking for until it's right in front of us.

We are told love is hard, it shouldn't be.
But even that is blurred and undefined.
We have questions.
How long should I wait?
Should I let it go?
There isn't one decisive answer to any of these.
No love is the same and no heart ache can be matched.
We experience love on our own.

Sometimes we are Forced to realize that love can't be enough.
Maybe the timing is wrong, or we're not open enough, maybe the world itself seems to be between us. Those are the ones that hurts the most. The ones that linger. They remain unanswered, bitterly thrown out into the universe, never to be understood. We just carry them with us, just another piece of our heart that we no longer own.

Sometimes we learn. We build and we get broken and build ourselves again through love. Through the euphoria, the quiet comfort, the arguments, the laughter and the pain. We slowly come to terms with who we are, and sometimes we just don't.

Sometimes we get it right. Sometimes, it takes years of trial and error. But eventually we'll find the perfect balance in ourselves,
and then we realize that love is in the small moments.
It's in the childish moments.
It's in simple things like having a cup of coffee.
It's in the quiet moments you appreciate the sunset and the waves and the stars.
It's in the silence between you two, face-to-face, no words needed, that's where we sometimes find it.
The meaning to ourselves or what we're looking for that we never quite understood, until that moment when we find our heart one with someone.

Love is every day.
Love is caring.
Love oftentimes cannot answer why or how.
Love is the small things that matter.
Love is being there for no particular reason.
Love is sometimes a battle.
Love is hoping for the things unseen.
Love is finding ourselves and then miraculously finding someone.

Sometimes I just want to remember all the times I got it wrong so that I can understand it when I finally get it right.